More like this.

It didn't feel fair to have to contend with such a sobering thought without a lick of booze inside you. He almost said as much aloud, but thought better of it. Constantine would probably be all too prepared to hook him up, but as much as Hector wanted a little something to numb his thoughts, at the same timehe didn't. They didn't deserve that reprieve, not when it was supposed to be their job to keep people like this safe. At times like this, he wondered if Nabu had been right to steal him the way he had; the same of Raguel, T'Charr, Terataya, and others: beings who required and demanded a saccrifice - a vessel - in order to lend their power and assistance to the wold of men. Hector had been freed from his own bargain with Fate, though now he found himself bound by a new one, a parole of sorts that let him be himself in exchange for succoming to Fate when He was needed. It was a complicated arrangement, one marred by circumstance and interpretation. In situations like this, it was hard to feel as if Fate wasn't needed; as if the Detective was somehow adequate compensation for the absense of the Doctor. In Gotham, those situations were all too frequent; quietly, Hector wondered if the choice to come here had truly been his own, or if Nabu had seeded thoughts in his head, surrounding him with the temptation to become more and do more than a mere mortal ever could.

That was why Hector valued his partner, more than he'd ever openly admit. Constantine was the consumate mortal: crass, flawed, and stubbornly determined to do as much good on this mortal coil as one conceivably could, by whatever means necessary. He was the chaos to Hector's order; and between the two of them they had accomplished much. Not enough, perhaps; but they were trying - and that, Hector had come to understand, was the truest embodiment of as much as humanly possible that anyone could ever reach.

"Is that a standard Constantine ominous statement," Hector asked grimly, "Or the we should swing by my apartment to pick up spare pants, just in case level of ominous?"